For over forty years, I considered myself a victim. To;
- My Self Image
- My ugly body
- The fat on my body
- Foods that just triggered me off
- A compulsion to just carry on eating, even when full
- Dieting to get rid of the fat and feelings of loathing
- Calorie counting
- Fat units
- Food intolerance
- My fat belly
It took me nearly a life time to discover the root of why I have always had this battle. One of them being that as a child I was always being told to tuck my tummy in, and as a 14 year old I was issued with a corset to keep it in.
This message was not only coming to me from my Mother, but from my gran and also a teacher at school who was the ring leader in calling me GubGub after the pig in Dr Dolittles adventures.
I don’t blame any of them now, but I did for a long time, even of I was unaware of it.
Many new regimes of eating in our modern days, look at the physical side of control. But there is another deeper side to it all. Much like trying to run a car that keeps breaking down. Just filling it with more fuel, or a different type of fuel, will not fix the problem if it is the battery that is flat. So it is with humans. If we keep just thrusting down feelings, memories and resentment, we will never get to the root of the problem. Our batteries will always be flat.
Getting into the right place is not necessarily just about looking great. When we have an “inner” glow, we can look fantastic.
Part of my inner work that freed me up was forgiveness for all those people who gave me a false message, which I lived by.
I have had quite a journey over the years, some of it exciting, some not, but always challenging.
It is a wonderful thing to be free of the tyranny of forever worrying about my shape and my looks.
How do you go about finding that inner glow, which gives you confidence in yourself, and frees you up from the necessity of the “Forever Diet?”
I would love to hear your comments.
Either here, or perhaps on my Facebook page.